My emotions are all over the place. I need to vent them.
I'm sad. I cried all yesterday morning. Then last night at Nick's work Christmas party we sat at a table with a retired couple and two pregnant couples. TWO. I tried all night to tell myself "No, I'm fine. It's cool! I'm having a good time!" Yeah. Then I tried the "get drunk and make my own damn fun" tactic. Couldn't catch a buzz!
My husband is amazing. He stayed by my side and didn't judge me or scold me for all the reckless emotions I kept throwing at him. I love you BB. I did end up having a pretty good night.
I'll just pretend someone will read what I write, and at least if I get this shit off my chest I will feel a little better.